Today has been a very bad day.
One of my students was killed in a traffic accident. She was 21 years old. Another student is in critical condition and a third has also been admitted to the hospital.
I received a phone call this morning from a student from my 1 p.m. class. He told me that most of the students would be absent from class today as there had been an accident and Ji-hye (not her real name) was in the hospital. He said her classmates were going to visit her. He didn’t mention the other girls and his voice was very calm, so I mistook the severity of the situation.
There were seven students in class. Normally there are twenty-two. I asked them if they had heard anything about the accident. One student said he had. “What happened,” I asked him. He said he didn’t know, but that he heard it was serious. I sent a text message to the student who had called me in the morning asking the extent of Ji-hye’s injuries. Honestly, at that point I couldn’t imagine what I was about to learn.
Ten minutes later my phone buzzed. I opened my phone and looked at the message. “After the accident, Ji-hye died,” it read. My heart started pounding and it felt as though the students in class had disappeared. All I could do was stare at my phone in disbelief. I continued reading, “Sun-hee is in critical condition and Mi-young (not real names) is also in the hospital.”
I closed the phone and set it down on the desk. Trying to regain my composure, I looked at the students in the classroom, whose heads were down as they were working on a writing assignment. I walked over to one student’s desk to look over her writing, thinking that I could somehow suppress the shock that had overcome me. It was no use. I saw words on the paper, but I was unable to cognate anything.
I walked back to the front of the classroom. I gathered the students’ attention and announced, “Everyone. We are going to finish class right now. I’m afraid I have some terrible news…”
That was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. And I’m not sure even now if it was the right thing to do. The students also reacted with disbelief. These are students who go on retreats together. Hold fundraisers together. Pretty much do everything together. And now they learned that one of them was gone and two others were in serious condition.
Ji-hye was a very nice girl. Always smiling. Always said hello whenever I saw her outside of class, and said it very sincerely. To be honest, as a whole this class has not been one of my favorites. A load of great personalities, but they could try a little harder. But Ji-hye was always one of the students who paid attention and, though her English was not too good, she showed a keen interest in learning when it was time to learn. I don’t know the names of about 90 percent of my students, but I knew hers. She will be missed and my heart goes out to her family. Also, if you read this, say a prayer for the other two girls.
On Wednesday it is going to require all of the strength that I can muster to get through calling attendance.
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